This medicine makes me sick and that's ok

There is this medication that I am taking to help me not drink alcohol.  When I do consume any amount of alcohol I become very ill. The problem with this is that the medication doesn't differentiate between types of alcohol. Example : Regular deodorant has alcohol in it, I put in on and a few minutes later I am sick to my stomach and I need to lay down. So far I have found that I will need to replace the following products I use on a daily basis: Dish soap, deodorant, shampoo, all my hair products, all of the lotions for my face and body, shaving cream, and body wash. at first I super agro about it and then I stopped and did a thought record that my therapist had given me. after doing the thought record and a cost/benefit worksheet from another group therapy, i realised that i will be saving money by replacing all of these products, future finds and the new medication instead of going to get drunk. so financially it is a sound idea, emotionally , and  physically also. But, until pay day I will be a smelly, dry skinned, giant frizzy haired, hairy legged lady with dirty dishes. Oh well, I can live with that

My first Blog

I guess I should explain why I have decided to start a blog.I have bipolar 2. I also have a family of five that I care for. Over the last year I have been very unstable. I had gastric bypass and because of the rapid wieghtloss my meds have been unable to help me the way they should. I spend the last eight months floundering and trying to find my way. I found myself acting like I did when I was an unmedicated teenager. Running away, drinking to excess, hurting myself and so on. A month ago I ended up in the psych ward in my local hospital, finally getting the help I and my family needed.
I will get into all of that more ass time goes on. Today I need to write about today
I am a seamstress, because of my sickness I have not sewn anything for 8 months. I went to my sewing room knowing it was neglected but I didn't know how badly I had treated some of my favorite things. There had been a lot of rain this spring and summer and it had leaked into my sewing room in the basement. So far I have had to throw away close to a thousand dollars worth of fabric which I had just piled in the corner to sort through "at a later date" Some I could save but most was stained and moldy. not only is this financially stupid but a heath hazard for my family having moldy fabric sitting in water in the basement.
This is a true tangible example of my inward ciaos.
I know my writing is simplistic and rambling. I never said I was a writing but i did say I was crazy. I hope through what I write here maybe someone else can find comfort that they are not alone.
I look forward to what adventures I will have to share tomorrow.





J